Wish I'm the Bride not a Bridemaid

I'm in mood of blogging...hahahaha..I just want to write all my mind that still stuck on my head! I want to throw it out! Too much things and thinks in my mind! Ottoke? How should I do? I do really need some space..I need some breath..I do need vacation so badly!!Or some popped out of my head..or may be..I need a boyfriend..or..I wish so badly being a Bride..on my Royal Wedding? hahaha..Okay..Fine..it's not Royal Wedding..just Wedding? ... I laugh at myself. I don't know! I'm not deny either! Of course I want to have a boyfriend, of course I want to meet soon my Mr. more than enough, of course I want to be a Bride?..what Can I do? I'm not an easy person...Easy to fall in love..easy to say "yes" to some guy..easy as they've said to me..just take it easy...
Okay..It's not easy as my friends' thought or what you think...I have been through journey of love with uneasy ways..I've start commited being in relationship..since I'm on secondary school and then more relationships in High school ...*turn red face*
And some of my love stories fall in wrong person... but I really have no regret at all with all the relationship or all the feelings I've ever had! I've been through love in one side.. Just in my side..and I've been through unsaid love.. and of course no strings relationship...I've ever been fallin' to my friend and when we've end our love relationship we've end our friendship. I hate it! And I've ever been in love which we've met and end by destiny..such a drama love story..Really!!... (maybe someday I will share to you about that *_^ )and that become my last love relationship and and make me more mature in love..in commitment :)
Okay back to my real world...This wish become flat..or vapid...I do want to be a bride..but I have no idea when...I do want to..soon...I have no plan that I'm still single..I have planned on 26th I will be married..but..looks there is some delay .... (I will talk to to you about delay on my next blog post) ...
But one things for sure...deep down in my hear...I'm waiting..my time..I know there will come....
For some friends who asked..do you open my heart? Yes I do...I open my heart..but...this heart is fragile..this heart is blind :) this heart just want to choose some guy..and sometimes this heart is choose to fallin to Mr. Wrong..So this mind or brain is helpful (you can read my previous blog post about heart vs brain)..
I wish when it's come..I could be falling to Mr. More than Enough..Mr. Right..
This heart isnt easy to falling..I have try to open my heart to some guy when they looks want to know me more ..as my mind and brain though they quite good guy...but..it doesn't works..there's no chemistry or I couldn't feel my heart "thump-thump" when I'm with them...So..I talked to my heart..that's fine...It's okay when you fall or choose to Mr.Wrong..it's okay when you feel lonely...It's okay...just be still..and be strong..that time will come...and as I said..I will thankful and have no regret what I chose. I chose to wait...wait until I could really falling love and feel my heart "thump-thump"...Just wait...if it comes...the first thing I will do is to share to you....Just wait...as I wait...

Fitting bridemaid dress

before makeup

Here we are the bridemaid on my friends wedding

at Willy and Marsel Wedding Oct 2010

My best friend wedding as bridemaid -Aug 2011

My best friend Eka..she's the bride and I'm a bridemaid

My officemate wedding on Sep'09

Beach wedding party..here we are the Bridemaid - Sep'09

I miss Bali so much!!

This is a short blog about my feelings..I'm dying to take vacation..to travelling, but still stuck in my office..stuck in my routines activities..stuck in financial (this is the main reason >.<) I want to go to Bali so damnly badly madly ... Hiks...Here are my Pictures while I'm on Bali...My first time on Bali was May 2007 and 2nd time was Nov 2009 and I want so badly this 2011...every 2 years..but..what can I do...I'm absolutely stuck here!!! Could you help me outta here? >.<



My 1st time in Kuta Beach Bali (2007)



I always mesmerized with Sunset! and was cool in Kuta (2007)

In Mercure Hotel, I could see Kuta beach from the hotel! from my hotel room (2007)!

with my officemate on my 1st time in Bali, excited (2007)!!
XOXO

PinkLady

Friends with benefit or no string relationship

It's not a movie about Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis or movie Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher that I will share to you friends. I will share to you about Casual relationship or well known as friends with benefit..but what I will share about not about the real meaning of casual relationship or no string relationship or relationship with no commitment. If I copy from wikipedia, here they said about casual relationship In each case, the relationship's dominance in the lives of those involved is being voluntarily limited, and there is usually a sense that the relationship is intended to endure only so long as both parties wish it to.
From urbandictionary.com I got definition of no string relationship
1) Doing something for someone without asking for anything in return. In Indonesia..we called it TTM or teman tapi mesra.. but it's not like the explanation in wikipedia about casual relationship or friends with benefit..In my country most of TTM are not with "have a sexual relationship". I will not talk about casual relationship that have a sexual relationship. I will share with the bold sentences as above.

2) Being in a relationship with someone, while still dating other people. This is so there is not anxiety of worrying about where him or her is or what him or her is doing.
3) free of conditions, restrictions, costs, or any other obstacles

Okay..I confessed I've ever been in this relationship..(of course not with sexual relationship..absolutely NOT!) and some of friends...And mostly..the FACT is woman is always the victim..we were deeply fall in this relationship and want more in this relationship. While the man isnt like that or have a same feeling with the woman.
In my experience that, the first we expect nothing and become we expect less and end with this feeling...we expect more..we as a woman..want more..we are falling to this relationship..love has growing in our heart and mind.. and of course we want more..we want real love..and we don't care about anything...
At that time..I've been struggled..I've never have feeling like that..at that time..from friends..and become close and looks like we are more than friends..at that time..I have no feeling at all..At that time.. he was not my type..but at that  time..I'm felt..I'm echanted with his care..with him..all of him..I'm enchanted and drowned in that feeling...I wish he could be mine..not just as this "relationship" I want he would be mine. But..it hurts when your feeling and your heart want more but..your mind keep remind it couldn't! It hurts when you saw him everyday..or heard his voice..and kept gave you and treat you as usual. I must runaway from him, tried didn't see him or ignore him. But the most painful was runaway from your heart...from your feeling. I have no happiness..but I received painful in my heart...Pain when you realized this feeling shouldn't happened.
At that time the racional consideration on my mind were too many. One of the biggest was his "womanizer" act. I think he was treat other girls as me. And I'm trap on my own world, on my feeling, and tried hard to escape >.<
So...the other's experience also did to my friends..different case..different person (oh ya there are 2 cases of my friends and I were in the same person....LOL *secret*) ..but with same theme...Friends with benefit or no string relationship...
Okay too much explanation..a highlight..Dear women, be careful with your heart..be careful with what you decide..don't ever think or to do this kind of relationship. It sucks!
but..don't be sad if you have through a hard time..or have happened such this relationship...I never regret all relationship happened in my life. This kind of relationhip is my one of my journey of love. To learn and to grow. I've promised to myself that in my wedding day, I will thank to all my people in my journey of love. I thankful that with them, they bring me to be a strong and tough woman and will keep thankful with a person beside me...my husband..my half..my Mr. more than enough :)

“A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one”
~Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings~

XOXO

PinkLady

My Biggest Acne..Is it "Acne of love"?

Yesterday Morning I quite surprised..Yeay..I didnt realized that I have such a BIG acne in my face! And that one is the BIGgest! I should thankful with my face because this face is a good fellow and never made a fuss with me. the acne is very rarely and I dont need any expensive treatment for my face.. I don't need to facial..or wasted much money with this face..Luckily this face is very good and never demand more for treatment! Just very simple thing..wash my face is quite enough! It will be okay if used mosturizer or not..That would be fine! Usually I don't like my nose! because it produce more oil..so sometimes..when the other parts of my faces are okay..this nose area looks very oily!!

Look at this BIGgest Acne!!

Having fun with acne! *fake*

I think this narcissistic acne!

Big glasses with big Acne

Today look and still with this Acne!

See? still over here!

Pink style and this acne color is pink! LOL

Because I'm with pink this acne also became pink! LOL!

Okay..back to Biggest Acne..>.<..there is a myth that if you have 1 big acne, because you are thinking of someoneI have been thinking...about someone..The process of growing the " acne of love" is different from ordinary acne. Unexpectedly it thrives because of a sense of longing or miss somone, this longing buried deep and long is the main cause. And how to overcome it force of love that comes to us in order to complete the sense of longing for love is the remedy for acne. Some people said that, mostly it's happenned to woman. They like to keep a sense of longing and internalize in the deepest depths to be patient while waiting or miss someone so deeply!...Wow..what a myth!! But I think so..it is right..hehehe

Every morning and every afternoon I will think of someone.. that should not be mine..which is Mr.Wrong! Yeah...Is it for him? I miss him so much...
Or is it for waiting?
Do I over thinking about my "waiting time"? waiting my Mr. Good Enough? Do I want him so badly? because I think I am good enough with my Single life..I dont know..confused..
For now..I will keep enjoying my life..I really enjoy my single life..really..but sometimes there is a time.. I also want him ..truly..madly..deeplt... ^-^

I wish if it comes, we both will smile like this cute toy!

this is my smile for Mr.Wrong..I miss u so much!

I will dedicated my heart..my love to my Mr. Good enough!

XOXO

PinkLady

Singapore Trip 2010 part 2

Wow..I totally forget the detail or name of some roads in Singapore.. and have no time to asked help to Prof Google..So..I will share to you only limited info about my Singapore trip..If you need info.just contact me...hehehe..Okay..my Part 1 I shared in my pic I visited in Singapore Expo, it is

If you see that My route everyday in my MRT map, you can see I numbering as image below and here are the details:

1. Lavender MRT
I lived in small hostel with my friends, we are in 1 room for 7 person! WOW!! Actually this just for 6 person, but because our group is 7 person, so that's not a matter all in one room! Per person we paid SG$ 12 per nite.. very cheap rite? ...but we've enjoyed our time in this place. Our hostel was Fernloft City at Lavender  http://www.fernloft.com/Lavender.html

 
This hostel is just for our place to took sleep and rest at night!! and put our luggage and our shopping stuff..LOL!! And our place to shared our experienced..funny story and sad story..sometimes we argued in this room and laughed together!! Precious moment!!
We should woke up at 6 o clock to prepare..because we should queue for took a bath, we have bath room for shared in this hostels, and ironing the clothes..and sometimes we cooked our instant noodle for our breakfast in the kitchen!! We could did all of that in this hostel!!

2. Singapore Expo
My Asia Conference 2010 were held in this place, our grup went to this place at 7.15 so we could arrived at 8 o clock. At MRT we were together with the all office workers, students, etc. And so many people were in MRT! This my route everyday from May 26-30. From Lavender MRT to Expo MRT I must stop at Tanah Merah to change train.

3. Merlion Park and Fullerton Hotel
Getting There: Walk along the riverfront from Raffles Place MRT Station with exit H. Merlion is located adjacent to One Fullerton, a park covering an area of ​​2500 square meters of newly constructed. At One Fullerton, there are various restaurants, lounges and dance clubs on the river bank. It will be great if you came at night..You can see my pic on my "Singapore Trip 2010 part 1" we can see the lights and beautiful view over there.

4. Orchard Road
Orchard MRT Station, Please find the exit line and you can see this place:
A – Shaw House and Centre, Tangs, Singapore Marriott Hotel, Paragon, Lucky Plaza, Grand Hyatt Singapore, Palais Renaissance, Royal Thai Embassy, Grand Park Orchard , International Building, Scotts Square, Far East Plaza and Goodwood Park Hotel
B – Four Seasons Hotel, Orchard Parksuites and Orchard Boulevard
C – ION Orchard & Wisma Atria (Closed on 15 Jan 2008 and reopened on 21 July 2009)
D – Ngee Ann City, ION Orchard & Wisma Atria
E – Wheelock Place, Liat Towers, Far East Shopping Centre, Hilton Singapore, ION Orchard & Orchard Road (this was the place I chose for exit and I found Wheelock place)
This is where you can shopping..at that time..I didnt shopping..just sight seeing..window shopping :) We only 1-2 hours we spent at that time..after that ..we went to Mustafa center stopped by at Farrer Park MRT.
5. Chinatown
Just stop at China town at night..I only have 1 hour here...and it almost close, I bought accesories, such as necklace, bracellet, bags and some souvenir for friends..All price is 1 package 3 things for SG $10


 6. Bugis Street
I went to this place 2 times, first time I just sight seeing and bought little stuffs..but 2nd time..I shopped a lot!! LOL!! I bought souvenirs, clothes, shoes, stockings, wallet, accecories, etc. And becareful if you will shopping here, you must have skill of "bargaining power" and I have good skill of it! LOL!! all of our groups do shopping here! LOL!!

In front of this bus terminal is Bugis Junction, behind Bugis Junction is Bugis Street

From my hostel coz was near we ride bus, here my besties in the bus!

 If you see this carefully, use your EZ link card, see the orange box and wipe your card! it works!

 7. Mustafa Center
 Mustafa Centre houses the Mustafa department store, which caters mainly to the budget market. The department store at Mustafa Centre consists of two shopping centres: one retailing jewellery and household appliances, and has a supermarket; and the other selling books, CDs and DVDs, watches, electronic goods, footwear and clothing. Mustafa Centre sells more than 150,000 types of merchandise.  Located at a walking distance from the Farrer Park MRT Station on the North East Line, Mustafa Centre is a retail hub that has many Indian shoppers. ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mustafa_Centre )n this place..I just bought chocolates..remember my office's friends, my nephew and niece, and myself..I bought a lot of chocolates, and my luggage have a lot of weight because  of chocolates. This shopping center is big..Oh yah..you can buy perfume with good price!! But I'm not..I prefer Chocolates!! Yihaa!!

 8. Sentosa Island (Universal Studio)
The best way is in to take the North-East Line of the MRT to HarbourFront and then make your way to Level 3 of Vivocity, where you'll find the Sentosa Express monorail to the island. The train operates every 5-8 minutes from 7AM to 11:45PM daily, and an round-trip ticket costs $3 (island admission included, EZ-Link accepted). The cheapest way though, is to take an MRT stopped by at HarbourFront MRT (http://wikitravel.org/en/Singapore/Sentosa) and if you see my pic you will direct to VIVO city Mall and on that mall you will find enter gate to go to Sentosa Island and you will took some train The old round-the-island Sentosa Monorail and it will bring to Sentosa Island. After I arrived to Sentosa Island, I have planned to went to Universal Studio, so no time to Sentosa Island..It is better to choose to Sentosa Island in the morning because 1 day will not enough to treasure this island..1 day only in Universal Studio and have no time to spent in Sentosa Island..
Here my final trip at Universal Studio..all day long!! Morning to evening! and My foot and knee felt like broken!! Really!! After that I'm not going anywhere..Just stay at hotel and packed our luggage and ready for back home for tomorrow!

 
 
That's my long story at Singapore last year..If you wanna go there..it cost a lot of money..all is expensive. The mineral waters very expensive if compare to my place, and the food is not good for my taste, and if you like shopping..This is your place..!!

XOXO

PinkLady

Singapore Trip 2010 part 1

Hey..because of request from my bestie..I will share to you about my trip to Singapore last year! This is my first time went to Singapore..usually just for transit in awesome airport Changi Airport...I always transit in Changi but never been went to Singapore city...But that May 2010 I planned to Singapore city for Asia Conference 2010 for 1 week and here

This was the Asia Conference I attended

Me and famous Orchard Road

with friends in Orchard Road

Our meeting point when we separated (Orchard Road)

Like walk of fame in HK but have no hands mark

Area of Ochard, and likes the fence and building

MRT Orchard direct to This Wheelock Place Mall

The famous Fullerton Hotel

at Clarke Quay

near to The famous Merlion Park

I forget this bridge name in Clarke Quay

I attend for This conference and have limited time to sight seeing or city tour in Singapore..since the schedule of this Conference was tight.. From morning to late evening, and I must see schedule and only at lately we did city walking! We were ran with time to get by the famous place in Singapore..Thank God..even we have tight schedule in Singapore we could went to some famous place in Singapore! Awesome!!
See you in my second part of this trip!

XOXO

PinkLady