A letter to all daughters.."You'll be Okay.."

A chat message me and my friend

My friend: Hi..how is your day? What is your feeling on today that age? 

Me: mmh..*thinking hardly* I feel nothing..really..i feel same like yesterday..

At my car this evening, alone with some music.

Me: do I need make some self contemplation now? To thinking about today? Really i feel nothing. "I AM OKAY". I do good, i am strong, helpful, independent, etc, bla..bla..bla and I am totally okay.

But a voice from my heart saying.."it's okay not to be okay..You'll be okay.."

Mmhh.. Another *thinking hardly* and said..okay..? "I THINK, I am okay!"

But this voice repeatly saying.. "You'll be okay.."

And I click louder the radio and ..surprise..surprise..a song really make me speechless and could not say any words, just more tears on my face, this is not a christian song, or came from the christian artist etc, but..really it touched my heart, and speaks clearly about " I think I am Okay!!" A song from "a great big world, "You'll Be Okay"

"You'll be okay

You'll be okay

The sun will rise

To better days

And change will come

It's on it's way

Just close your eyes

And let it rain

'Cause you're never alone

I will always be there

You just carry on

You will understand

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

Just look inside

You know the way

Let it go

Fly away

And say goodbye

To yesterday

'Cause you're never alone

And I will always be there

You just carry on

You will understand

And I will be strong

When love is gone

I'll carry on...

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

The sun will rise

To better days

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

Just close your eyes

And let it rain

When you need it the most

And all you've got is a prayer

You must carry on

You will understand

You will understand

You will understand

My "not a contemplation" planning, on my car when I want to off my car machine.

Sunday, June 15th, 2015

Stevany, who think she is okay, but she's not.

Who think she is strong, but she's not.

She is just only human..A Daughter..who really Totally depend on her Father. 

A Real and True Father..

She is only a daughter, who can't lie or even pretend to her Father.

She is only a daughter, who trying to show to her father "I am lady now"

But..she FORGET...she still a DAUGHTER in her Father's eyes!!

She is only a daughter...

- Happy Father's day -

Happy New Year 2014

Time flies and here I am in 2014. 

2013 was awesome year, year of favor and Grace from God. Joy, sorrow, tears, good, bad everything in there. For some reason i think this 2013 is one of best year for me, many surprises from God and things that i never thought or imagined were happened. Some are good some are bad, but mostly that were best things in my life.

2014.

I dont know what will happen this year. The best thing is yet to comes. And i think i prepare myself to be ready. For i know who holds me for my future. Like this picture you will see a lake and my foot. I walk by faith not by sight. Faith the lake of blessings and miracles. 

                        

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what lies ahead.

H A P P Y   N E W   Y E A R    2 0 1 4

A geek and part time blogger is raise from the death! Welcome home!

Last two weeks i just bought an ipad mini. Why i choose this gadget because it’s small and light and easy to bring everywhere. It was started when I'm so interested with my officemate’s kindle and want to buy it so badly..i could read books everywhere..but after do some survey…the winner goes to...ipad mini...i chose to bought it..which is on ipad i'm no just could get read books but some other that important for me.

 I really loves reading book… Yes I’m a moody geek! When i really want to reading books, i will read and finished so badly and add buy some books and finished it soon! But sometimes when i get lazy i ignore it for months! LoL…😸
the reason Maybe because i’m too tired or too lazy so i prefer to sleep! Hahahha
..so back to ipad, i realized if i will more traveling as Auditor i should bring book! But i’m a person always forget my books! And other reason, it heavy if i will bring some books, So no other choice than e-book! 

Actually I dont like ebook, I like smell of paper book! But since the better choice was ebook for my situation, so let use this new ipad mini as my reason why i chose to bought this book! So i asked my friends ebook files from her kindlebook, and so happy with those interesting files but I must convert it to Epub file (format read for ibooks ipad mini)..and so happy with those kind of file ebooks could import to my ipad mini! When I open iBooks apps, i feels like found heaven on ipad…it is now become my hiding place, My iBooks’ “Bookshelf”…


the other reason also What makes me happy that…those books are difficult to find in any bookstore in My city…😢 Those ebooks are novels (heavy and light contain), motivating,christian books and  all kinds of genre books and mostly are bestsellers, and even my manuals related my job i have put here and could open anytime.  😉😍

And this iBooks apps, the other advantages, I could read a book and put some notes, highlighted, and i also could get translation on the book I read, when i get lost with the meaning (english). I don't even need to open dictionary! 
It have the definition like oxford dictionary!...yeay! Maybe i kinda late to realized this…but I’m in ❤ to my iBooks bookshelf on my Ipad mini! I could read everywhere and anytime! 


And…one good thing on this ipad mini that my other hobbies to write blog, could access and write anytime, so i will have no excuse to stop sharing or writing on my blog..everything on my mind…let get share it! Yeeeaaayy!!😂

God is never late nor is He early

Today in office's morning devotion I'm so touched heard a story about a child name Javier. Can't stop cried to know about the story of this child and can't wait to share it to my blog. I'm blessed and grateful! God is GREAT! He is AWESOME!

God never blink for them and for us!

And the story began....

Javier is a 6 year old boy, East Indonesia, born with a cardiac abnormality, he is a son of a casual worker and a mother without job, and he has two siblings. Medical names his heart problem is Atrial Septal Defect (ASD). Javier is child sponsored in Compassion and Compassion helped with Complimentary Intervention that provides medical fund for him for heart surgery. From small island went to big capital city Jakarta, with his mom and 1 staff of Compassion's project, they were ready for big surgery. Javier's mom was very afraid for this "big step" because the doctor said this surgery was really complex and very high risk and they must ready with every condition during and after surgery. On Friday, last week, my colleague as Facilitator for this project informed for all of staff to uphold Javier in our prayer for the big surgery. We were hoping the best for Javier, we believed God took care the surgery for Javier!
And finally on Friday, very good news sounds, that Javier's surgery went well and moved to ICU room. And another miracle happened  sounds today in our devotion that Javier has stabilized condition and the doctors said he could going home!! Oh God is Great..!! He did the surgery for Javier! He never blink! And another miracle about Javier...And my tears can't going down when I heard this news.. I'm amazed with God's love and he still works for Javier's life. There's as unknown kind-hearted woman talked with Javier's mom and the project staff and she's so touched with Javier's condition, and she said that, she will take care for all the hospital bills (surgery, medicine, room, etc)! They can go home safely and do not need to worry about any hospital bills! Praise God..Praise His Holy name! God loves Javier so much!

God is never late nor is He early!

I'm so amazed by His love to all the children! He loves them unconditionally! I'm so proud to have God who never blink for every children! I know this is just a small story but there is a lot stories more to come to show God's love to every children! He never blink....

Loves God, Loves Children....

 

S t e p h

 

Selfie of the Month

What do you do when you're just alone at your room in your office and got boring...I did selfie picture yesterday! LOL!!
Sitting in new room as new position and your team members are not around.. read new workflow, new tool, and you got blank..and here I am with my selfie style!!
I think this is the most selfie ever for my self! Took 9 expressions..and just my face..what a selfie picture I ever did!

I think I miss my old finance team..which are ladies..and 1 man!
Now my new Auditors team members are men!
Here I share you my new small room.. The Auditors room...



Okay..now let's back to work! *big grin*

xoxo

SunsetLady 

Happy National Children Day 2013!

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

Today, Indonesia, my lovely country, celebrates National Children Day...and I think today Google Indonesia also show the support and celebrate this day with 2 children, A girl and A boy. A boy wear a elementary school uniform in Indonesia which is read and white, while A girl wear a girl scout uniform in elementary school uniform in Indonesia.

And today I want to celebrate this special day...this National Children Day..by writing this post...

What can moves me? What is my strength? What is my weakness? What is my passion? What is my great desire? What is my calling?  THE ANSWER is only one...C   H    I    L    D    R    E    N...
One of my motto ..Loves God, Loves Children...
I can't imagine if in this world only men and women and there's no children..I think I can't live in this world if there's no children anymore..LoL..

Living in the developing country and a big country in Indonesia, makes me thankful, which it's makes me realize why I'm stay in this world..

I'm here to see and see, and I'm doing here to act and act.

Kinda confuse huh?

I'm here to see the reality of children's life now and see what should like children's life in Indonesia, and I'm doing here to act my best for children and will let children act tor themselves and other children...

Living in this crazy and hard world, PUSH myself not just THINK but ACT!
What have I do for those children..I cant stop crying if I see and hear about the reality about children..But my tears aren't enough for children...My "sweat" or my labor does!!
One of my favorite author and my inspirator Wess Stafford, my "Papa Wess" always talk about
 

"Do we treat children with respect? Do we seek to build them up? Or do we neglect them? Do we become advocate for them when they can't speak for themselves?"

“I’m convinced that one of the most powerful forces on earth is the prayer of a child.”
― Wess Stafford
“If we nurture the dreams of children, the world will be blessed. If we destroy them, the world is doomed!”
― Wess Stafford

 

It moves me to ACT!

So, what am I doing for children?

Now, I'm not working.. I live my life for children in this world..I'm lucky when God put me in Compassion, not just work but to live for children in poverty...I'm a luckiest and happiest person when I'm around children... do you?

I don't want to teach anybody here about children...but..do you realize how precious they are? Don't wait until you realize...this world will become NOTHING without them!




 For me it's just very simple..

L O V E S     G O D ,    L O V E S     C H I L D R E N

xoxo

SunsetLady 

I got Disease!! It names LAZY disease of write blog!

8 months...Yeaaaahh...I absent for writing blog. I think, the lazy disease control my life, so the busy things I did, wasnt a main reason, it's lazy!!!
Actually I have many drafts, but, stuck in the middle to continue the blog post!! HAA! Where are you my blogger soul? Have you run out of myself? Have you trap in my body? Or do you hide and dont want to come out?
Yeaaah..I got stucked!!
I have a lot of experiences gained during my absences time (July 2012 to March 2013), but still, I dont have any feel to write a blog, even I'd like to!
I confused where I should start..but here is the summary of I missed, I dont know of I could post 1 month 1 blog post!

August: Busy with trainings...yeah..we have capacity building training at office, and this month..have no memorable moment to me!! Hahaha...
September: Still with busy tasks at office, but excited to travel out of my town! I have to delivered training in Papua at end of September! Yeay!! Finally I'm back to Papua again! But I have tight agenda! LOL! But better than I have to stay at office! I need to travelling! Or I'm died to bored!
October: What an excited Month, I could travelling to Papua and also Bandung! A long trip of travelling. From Manado, go to Papua, stay for 4 days and go to Jakarta-Bandung for training for 3 days and back again to Sentani Papua, go to Wamena Papua, back to Sentani Papua and back home...Manado..my lovely town! Great experiences I've gained that month (May be I will share 1 blog post for this month)
November: New thing...One of my wishlist finally reached! Yeay..I have new car..bought with my own money (*proud*) and drive with my own..proudly present my Sir Black... Daihatsu Sirion Black..
(should I present 1 post blog for introduced my Sir Black? :P )
December: Christmas....and end of year..I've nothing special this month...Just like last Christmas..spent with my family at my lovely town!!
January: Stay for quite long at other town left my lovely town Manado. almost 1 month I have to stay at Sentani Papua, while my assistant for new office in this area still vacant! Yeay..trap in this Sentani town in Papua..but I enjoyed it... (wait my story for this!)
February: This is my February Breeze!!...My summer vacation!! my summer wasn't on June or July..but February!! Sunbathed, enjoyed sunset and beach with friends at BALI!! Last year of February, I went to Bali..and finally..at the same month at this new year..I also get vacation on BALI! One of my favorite place to escape...vacation!!! This must be more than 1 blog post! wahahahha
March: Starting to write blog..I must...that's my target!!...

Okay my blogger soul..welcome to my world again.. thank you for comeback..thank you for not hiding anymore...now it's time to do your job!! Let's starting together..to share a story..to share the love we have...
Wait and see for blog post coming... don't miss it guys!!

xoxo

SunsetLady

Your favor and Your grace Lord last a lifetime

Last Wednesday I attended a concert..
Christian youth concert by True Worshippers
They have a new album titled "FAVOR"
I never heard their new song..
And when I heard..it breaks my heart
Remember about God's Favor and God's Grace to me
And I could say nothing...only tears felt down from my face..

And flash back to 11 years ago..
Yup, when I trully have officially engaged with Jesus!
Falling in love...deeper and deeper!
I remembered what I've been through
In my whole life and after I have deep relationship with Jesus
I was amazed..while they sang this song..
All the pictures of life..video of my life..
I can saw it clearly..
All of my life..happened because of His Favor and Grace
He never leave me or forsake me!

Bloggers..
My life is live only by His Grace and Favor
A lot of happened in my life
And if not because of His Grace and Favor
I could never be like I am now!

Now the vision is clearly this year
The commitment that I've been made
also become stronger..
Here is the songs..that melt my heart
This song as my gratitude for my Jesus Christ..
Song by True Worshipper

FAVOR

by True Worshipper

There is a song in every silence

There is a dawn in every darkness

There is a hope in every pain

There is a spring in every winter

Even in doubt there is believing

Through every season You are near

Oh Your favor and Your grace Lord

Last a lifetime, Last a lifetime

Oh Your favor and Your grace Lord

Last a lifetime, Last a lifetime

You satisfy our deepest hunger

You broke the bond and set us free

You gave us life eternally

Jesus the name that calms our fears!

Only in You our sorrows cease

Yout love has won and now we see

Hallelujah, You are faithful, You are faithful 

Hallelujah, You are faithful, You are faithful

Now..my life will lived the vision and dream from God for me, to obey the calling and doing  God's purpose for me when He created me..

And I love you more and more Jesus..
My Shelter, My Strength, My everything

xoxo

SunsetLady

Don't You Remember

It's been  a long time I did not back to my space..my blogging time!!
After vacation, the busy things in office drawn my life!
I could not felt the free of myself
Enjoy "me time" and take a deep breath!
And here I am today, took a deep breath and enter to my space, my blogging time!
This week, I have situation up and down
I could feel so happy or so sad
Sometimes feel so lonely sometimes I feel I'm not
Feel that I'm in love and then heart breaking!
This week the graph of life trully high and low!
I'm on confused feeling!
Fulfilled and empty!
This could change anytime on this week!

I wanna share you a song..
That keep singing in my mind over and over again!
Even the music stop, but is still play on my mind!
Special I dedicated this song
For someone that I met this year
Short but it still have a room in my heart
Sometimes it closed sometimes it opened!
So I present this song from Adele to you....

DON'T YOU REMEMBER

by. Adele

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any scene,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hoped that you'd find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?



Hopefully you do remember me..
I wish nothing but the best for you..

SunsetLady



Vacation on South Korea

Annyeonghaseyo...
안녕하세요 ...
It's been long time again..I didn't update my blog! Fuiihhh... A lot of things to do last 2 months...and it happens till now!! Fuiihhh agaainn!!
But at least I already recharged with 2 weeks vacation! TRAVELLING to South Korea!! Yup..That's my wishlist on 2011 but happened on 2012...It's because this trip need a lot of money to saving! So finally, one of my wish list accomplished!! I'm happy!! even more than happy! Because that was BEST vacation I've ever had!! God's grace keep followed me during the preparation and also when I'm in South Korea!
A lot of challenges and struggles before I went there, but it worthed! All paid with the best vacation I've ever had!! Totally enjoyed, amazed and grateful while the travelling!!
This vacation only by His Grace..Trully!! Thank you Jesus!! I've been blessed also with kind heart of my friends and colleagues! Thank you to my manager, who allowed me to took 2 weeks vacation, Alined and Aphiel and also Mam and Sir Sasela for allowed us stay at Sukorejo and also got free tour around Surabaya, yeaayy (finally met my bestie after a long time but only short time to hang and talk..hiksss..I wish I could have more time to share, because it looks like a lot of to shared!! LOL)!!!..Another thank to Indah and her husband Park in Gunsan, South Korea, thank you for be a best host and also your kind heart to allowed us stay during in Gunsan and also took us to all best place in Gunsan, and also Jeonju tour, I'm blessed and also bring us to your church! Thanks to Pastor at Samil church and his wife, I'm trully blessed with their hospitality, the gifts also, I'm amazed! And also the member of church, all eonnie  (read uni), thanks also for the lunch time together!
Another Big thank to kind hearted woman I've ever met, Esther Baek..We're very blessed met her and Goodie, cute and smart dog (miss her already *_^), for allowed me to stay for 6 nights at her house, to trust us even we never met before! To bring us to Compassion Korea office, met and know great people there and having best experience, and last but not least the part of bring us to met Pastor Kim Jung Ha "shoeshine Pastor "!! I don't know how to pay her kindness heart! God will bless you richly Sister! Sorry for our mess in your house..!
Another special thanks to Finance Director of Compassion Yong Jin and another finance team member ByungHyun , JaIn, MinHa, SungIn, and Hyun Sil! Thanks for treat us lunch time and we could have great time to share!
All Compassion Korea staff for welcomed us with warm hearted, Trully blessed with the morning devotion, office tour, etc! Keep serving the Lord and all children in th world!
To my officemates (Bu Lala for introduce me to great woman Esther, Pak Jo for keep update news from office, Linda for help me with office matter, Gladies you are great to support our team! Andre for help me with skype, Ka Jane and Bu Haw to help Gladies a lot, and the others), my dear besties (Inah thank you for the bag!! Ruscai for drop me at airport) out there, thank you for keep prayed for us during my travelling and also keep supported us! I'm blessed with all of you!
And my partner in crime..LOL..my travelling partner Shinta..I'm blessed during travelling with you!! Absolutely best and unforgottable moment in South Korea, right??.. *_^
Last but not least to my family, to my big family, Thank for support me, I'm sorry for could not attend at Granny's funeral and be there with all of you! I believe Granny happy with God in heaven now, love you Oma (my Granny)...

Yup I'm very grateful and thankful, God is sooooo GOOD to me, to give me this and people around me, who always support, pray and bless me!
I will share to you on next blog post about my Travelling to South Korea!!
Gamsahamnida...
 감사합니다 ...

xoxo

SunsetLady

I Won't Give Up

Aloha friends! I have been busy this week! Again! And this past 2 days I'm absence for my afternoon jogging! I  hope this will end soon! So I could enjoy my time without some busy works! :)
By the way, I wanna talked about new song that I just knew and heard this past week and felt in love to this song so deeply! With the music and the lyric! It's so romantic! And was surprised because sang by Jason Mraz! I've known him with groovie songs like I'm Yours, Lucky, Live High, Butterfly, etc.
When I listened carefully I melted with the lyric! it's so...poetic..
Listen the music well and read the lyric carefully!! What do you think??

Jason Mraz

I won't Give Up

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use

The tools, the gifts we've got yeah we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend

For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not

And who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

This Lyric have a strong message! It can be universal! Not just about the lovers, but also about what we wouldn't give up! What we want to fighting for that something precious for us!
Oh My Gosh..That was awesome! Love is a about to fighting for. When we're in love we're fighting for... Why? When we're in relationship.. we're fighting for the love by trying to love unconditionally, to accept the weakness and understand each other. It is about to love the unperfect person, perfectly!  When you're give up, you stop to fighting for love. And it just gone and remain hurt. We should figthing for love.. and that's the love means for me!!

"Love doesn't hide. It stays and fights. It goes the distance, that's why love is so strong. So it can carry you all the way home. - Unknown"

This song reminds me again to say never give up on love! For the people we love, family, friends, our passion and dream!
About my love story, until now, I still don't find the real man that I should fighting for (I've been through with some man but they're not the one who should to fighting for)!
Yup, to be real in loving someone! I've never been there yet! I'm the type of person who love someone which growing everyday, I'm not the person that when I'm with him that I love him fully at the first! I must let my love growing day by day and not devastated everyday! So, to be with a man who make my love growing. mmhh.. still couldn't find it :)
But it doesn't matter, I will be here patiently waiting! I'm still looking up! God knows I'm tough enough! I've believe that I will met this man someday, SOON!
Someone that worth to fighting for! Someone to be love  perfectly and unconditionally and who will make me say "I won't give up on us"!

So, if you have found your trully man who deserved to fighting for, keep fighting! Never give up! Remember love is about stays and fights!! Keep fighting!
And if you are same with me, who are still waiting and looking up, be patience and never give up for your love, to find the man! You will know when you meet him someday, who will be the one, who deserve to fighting for!

xoxo

SunsetLady

I, Proudly launch my "Dressy Wednesday"

Morningg fellas...how've you been?
Just want to launch my Weekly theme "Dressy Wednesday"..Yup which is my outfit to go to office!
This was idea from my bestie Alined , she asked me to choose a day for my office's outfit! Actually, I want to do this since long time, but I'm not confidence with my outfit to be share at blog! I'm not a branded girl! Some of my outfit have no brand, or not a famous brand! And I'm not a fashionista, who always read a fashion magazine, or fashions news! And I'm not a fashion blogger also! I like be a fashionable, I like to be stylish, but for me famous brand is just a brand, I will wear a clothes, shoes, accecories, as long it's catchy to my eyes, comfort, and make me confidence to wear! But she encouraged me, that's fine, just share it! Don't think with that! Just share it ! Yup..I forgot about my theme of this blog! I will share about my daily love, about anything happened in my life, my thoughts, my idea, anything that I want to share on this blog!! :)
So, since I'm not a staff with uniform :) So, okay..why not start today? Lucky me, I could use daily outfit with what I want! Yeayy!!! As a woman, of course we like to be a fashionable or stylish! Since I'm a moody, sometimes my fashion outfit also depends on my moody! But, sometimes in one week I make theme what outfit I will wear! If I wear Batik on Monday so the theme will be Batik for the whole week :) And if I wore skirt so for the whole week I will wear skirt! hehehe
Okay this week, my theme was skirt and dress, and this is it...my "Dressy Wednesday!

Shirt: Miss Me
Skirt: Fabrique material and made by a tailor :)
Shoes: Everbest
Bag: EverBest

Belt: No Brand
Bracelet: Buy at Bali
Neckless: Buy at Shanty Online ShopForget the brand :P
Earring: buy at Matahari Dept.Store (forget the brand)

This is it! My "Dressy Wednesday"

PS. Since this is my first launch of "Dressy Wednesday" Any comment, critique, are highly appreciated! Thanks..Love u!

xoxo

SunsetLady

My Sunny Monday Morning

Howdy my friends! Still can’t believe it, this new blog post has been my 17^th post on this March! Wow! New record! After almost more than 2 months have no blog post but this month, looks like all paid on this month!!

And today I wanna say “I like Monday!” Yeayy!! My last posted was today published at 00.30 am, talked about the new me, about released my regret feelings, to some unfinished business, truly make me a new spirit! I have no regret all! All the regrets were yesterday, and it becomes my past! And it’s all becomes memories, and you were part of it! Something for sure is the right man will be part of my future! No more regret, this is a new me, no doubt to say my true feelings, I will not hold or keep it as my regret without trying! If it’s not work as my wish, that’s fine, lessons learned, move on, because life goes on! It’s fine to feels hurt at least I put some effort on it!

Started my morning with new hair style! Back to bangs again!! Today was awesome, I off to work on time and yeayy… I did my afternoon jogging again! After my vacations ends, all days were rains and I have no afternoon jogging! My afternoon jogging at my lovely sport field was awesome!! Of course with music ON, and enjoyed the cloudy and sunset while did my afternoon jogging! The sunset lady is back!

Hope you have a great Monday like mine today! By the way, how do you think about back to this hairstyle again? Hope you like it, like I did!!

My Monday new bangs!

Happy Monday

Much love to you…

xoxo

SunsetLady

The one that got away, will I get the second chance?

This past weeks I like to listen the song by Katy Perry, The one that got away and also Thinking of You, I like the music, and also the video clip of this songs! That songs talked about losing someone we loves, and we've just felt regret and wish we could turn back time, but it's late because that time will never come back!

I don't know why, but when heard this song, I felt that I can feel that! I think I never really deeply sad because of losing someone we loves! Of course when we're in grieving, we're really sad, or deeply hurt about losing someone we loves! About our lovers, BF or GF, died, I hope you will never feel it, but when heard story about this, I also feel how deeply hurt it, losing someone that we loves!

Broken heart...Mmhh of course I have, but deeply hurt because losing him, I don't know exactly! I never felt really grieving to a man, I didn't! I'm sad when she's with other woman, I got tricked, or because he's change, etc, but when it happen I will said to myself. He's not worth it! I could get better than him!

Regret...Mmh maybe this is something always happen with me! Sometimes I regret with what I do? I'm a person sometimes regret about something or someone!...This weekend I'm thinking about this matter, because it's like running text on my mind..about regret, and this second chance!

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

--lyric The one that got away, Katy Perry-

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

--lyric of Thinking of You, Katy Perry-

Yup, from some of men came to my life, sometimes I thought about this. Sometimes I felt regret, sometimes I felt that I'm good with my decision. But as a woman, and I'm a person that who always realized at the last, Yup I felt regret to some of my life story!
Mostly because of the prideand my stubborn! If I said no, I will never take it back, even I'm hurt, or I'm dying to do it! I'm with my considerations, will said never take it back!! That's my pride and stubborn!! Sometimes I felt, why I'm not say that "I want to back with you", or "I want to say sorry, because I'm mad", "I forgive you", or "actually, I like it, but I'm still not sure with my feeling!", "I like you" and today I confessed! I REGRET!! Yup I regret because I didn't said it! I regret because of my considerations and my pride! I regret because I'm not tried before I know it!
 My bestie said that I'm too afraid too try, always want in my comfort zone, and sometimes I applied it in my love life!! hahaha....Am I?..Mmhh..Yup! I confessed, you are right!!

Okay I regret for some things happened in my love life, If I got second chance, (I'm not expect for the same person, but if I have, I will put some effort with no regret again), if my heart say this is the time, try to give more effort, less pride and stubborn!

Yup, now it's the time to move on! Forget the past! Just let it go..I will let my feelings to person who is "the one that got away" freely go...and MOVE ON! No more regret start from today! Now the lesson's learned! Adele may sing "Nevermind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best, for you too."  and some quote may say "

I believe there is second chance and that must be better! Better than before!
I will sing "Nevermind, I'll find someone BETTER, I wish nothing but the best, for you too."

I will proudly say today, "I will have the second chance, although it will never be as great as the first one, but it will feels so right and it's will be perfect!" 

xoxo

PinkLady 









Her 55th surprised birthday cake!

Yesterday was a special day for my beloved Mom! It’s her birthday! She’s reached the 55^th years old now!! Wow!! God has been good to her and to us! For gave her a new day with a health condition! I’m thankful for her! “Mom, you’re my everything!” Last night I gave her small surprised with a choco birthday cake! Oh My God, it’s look delicious!! When she’s arrived home after went to her friend, I gave her the birthday cake with the candle number 55! She’s melted! I’m with my neighbors, the moms which were her friends, yup our small neighbor. We’re 10 people surprised her with this candle! They pray for my Mom and she’s cried!! And we ordered fried rice and noodles, and also some foods! I’ve got some cokes at my refrigerator and we’re talked and shared to celebrate my Mom’s birthday!!

Happy 55th Mom! -17031957-

Love u much, Mom!

I’m thankful for her! I learned become stronger from her! She’s a stronger woman! I’ve learned many things from her! Of course sometimes we argued, but everything just fine. Sometimes we’re like a teenager friends, when we’re fight, we were silent each other! And..then, we forgot who talked first!! We’ve forgot with what we’ve fought before!! LOL!!Yup that’s us! When we’ve talked or discuss we’ve like east and west! She’s agreed with A and I agree with B! We’ve always have different taste, opinion and character!!

I don’t like when she talked about “marriage” and asking “Who’s your BF now?”, “When you’ll  be married?” or sometimes saying, “Don’t afraid of marriage, don’t stay single for too long” or just adding info, “ Do you know that my friend’s daughter has been married?” or “Do you know you childhood’s friend B has a baby, that would be nice if I have one for you.”
Yeaah, I’m bored to answer the same theme!! So, if I’m in good mood I’m just quiet, but If I’m not, I will say a long sentences and yup, we‘re argued!!
But one thing for sure, we love each other!! I know she’s want me to get the best! She’s want me to be happy! Every Mom will do anything for her child’s happiness! I’ve understand that! That’s why I love her so much! She’s my hero!
Without her I’m nothing! Her prayer leads me to what I’m now! And I’m thankful for my Mom!

She's married at 24 y.o with my Dad

I got her photos album when she's young!

She's with her friend!

 That's Mom!! I searched her picture and since I dont have scanner, so I took with my camera for those pictures!! She's beautiful..and until now..for me, she is still beautiful!! I wish when I reach her age I still slim as her now!! Hihiihi...
I pray to God to keep bless and protect her, everyday in everyway! And Believe she's safe in God's hand! Amen!!

xoxo

PinkLady 

Thank God It's Friday, Thank God I'm Fabulous (TGIF, TGIF)

Yeayyy...How are you friends??...How've been lately?? Whazz up? Howdy? Apa Kabar? como você está? como estás? 어떻게 지내? Ogenkidesuka? wie geht es dir? hoe gaat het?
I've been Good!!...All is Good!! Everything is Good!!! *sing*

I feel good like I knew that I wouldn't

I feel good, baby like I knew that I wouldn't, So good. I, I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice So nice!!!

Yup and also today I feel pretty! LOL!! Don't you believe me ? Yup I do!! *wink* *sing*

I feel charming Oh so charming  It`s alarming how charming I feel And so pretty
 that I hardly can believe I`m real  See the pretty girl in the mirror there? Who can that attractive girl be? Such a pretty face Such a pretty dress Such a pretty smile Such a pretty me

What? you say I'm in love mood? So that's why I felt good and pretty? Hell No!! We don't need to falling in love to feel so good and feel so pretty! How Silly if I thought like that!!
So whazz up??? Hahaha..Yup you rite!! It's Friday!!! I'm happy because it weekend!! It's friday buddies!! Let's party!!! Let's rock on!! Let's dancing!! Let's smiling!! Let's laugh!!

“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”

― Elizabeth Gilbert,Eat, Pray, Love

Usually I wrote about Fill in Blank Friday, adapted from other blog..hehhehe...But today, I want to confess you, about my story "Eat, Pray, Love" that I've been shared to you on my last post!
I've never read or saw this movie (I've been to movie rent shop, but it's out, try to buy it and watch it) but until now "Eat, Pray, Love", yup until today, I didn't, I've known this story by read about the plot of the story, the recaps, etc. First, I known about this movie was last 2009 when Julia Roberts came to Bali for shooted this film and at that time I was there on Bali, of course I didn't met her! But at that time, that's like a big issue in Bali, where's the place for shoot, etc!
And I googling it and finally I read the recaps of the story! And when it's show on the theatre I forgot to watched it! hahahah!!
And when after I'm back from a long trip (Papua, Bogor, Bali), I thought and felt, like I'm in to it! Connected with this title story "Eat, Pray, Love"! Like I'm said before I'm not Elizabeth, devastated with love, up on love and finally get her real love!!

Do I devastated in love? Hey I think I'm not! Some people say asking why I'm still single... I have more than all the girl want it! I have good job, good attitude (thank you!! *blushed*), good smile (*big smile*), good looking (That's why I'm sayin' I feel preety!! *just kidding*), loves children (okay, who's doesn't like kids? They're adorable!), bla..bla..bla.. If you still single the reason is you must be too picky, or you're afraid of love, be in love, because you've experience deep heart break!!

Whatt?? Afraid of love?? heart break?? mmhh..Need to clarified..Okay..About too picky...how do you think, when you with somebody, are you sure you're not think or consider about him/her before, to know him/her before you choose? Or you just be with somebody without think or consider? wahahha...You know, okay I confess, I like cute man, like Tom Welling, Ryan Phillipe, they have physically perfect!! But hey I'm not the person who choose to marry him! What am is sure?? *dillema* LOL!!
Physically is like a so-so requirements, Sometimes, we can't choose to someone who will we fallin! But we can choose to move on, to be real or to think if he is the one or not!
For me it is fine to fall in love!! Even to the Mr.Wrong (Mr. Wrong it's like the man who already married, engaged, in a relationship, bestie's BF, to bad person-druggers, alcoholic- etc)
But do i need to keep my feeling to that person who already be Mr.Wrong? Do I need to fallin in love?
Or do I need to keep my feeling who already have no response with my feeling? Do i need to fallin in love?
That's why for me to be in love, I need more consideration! and some people say I'm too picky!
Okay last week one of my bestie say that I'm to afraid to fallin in love or to continue fallin in love or to shows my feelings! I'm a lady with a mask!! hahahah...I'm a person who say no, but actually my heart yes! And man couldn't read it!!!

“It's still two human beings trying to get along, so it's going to be complicated. And love is always complicated. But humans must try to love each other, darling. We must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Gotcha!! I'm a person who keep her heart is okay and don't want to let it hurt!! okay..my defense: Raise your hand if you want to be hurt!! I'm not! I don't want to be hurt! Everyone does! You may saying I'm a careful person. Yup and it's good but also sometimes it not good! I will become too fragile about something! And sometimes it's fine to make mistakes, to fall, to be hurt because it will make you learn more about life!

“Someday you're gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You'll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing...”
― Elizabeth Gilbert

Yup..and it's make me realize..open my mind and heart again...I'm happy to have people around me who loves me sincerely! Love you besties!! *big hug*
Now this fragile lady is happy, excited, and full of hope!

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

 Okay...So, Happy Friday to you..Happy Weekend, enjoyed it!! Love you!!

 

xoxo

PinkLady