Her pink life stories..: Wish I'm the Bride not a Bridemaid

I'm in mood of blogging...hahahaha..I just want to write all my mind that still stuck on my head! I want to throw it out! Too much things and thinks in my mind! Ottoke? How should I do? I do really need some space..I need some breath..I do need vacation so badly!!Or some popped out of my head..or may be..I need a boyfriend..or..I wish so badly being a Bride..on my Royal Wedding? hahaha..Okay..Fine..it's not Royal Wedding..just Wedding? ... I laugh at myself. I don't know! I'm not deny either! Of course I want to have a boyfriend, of course I want to meet soon my Mr. more than enough, of course I want to be a Bride?..what Can I do? I'm not an easy person...Easy to fall in love..easy to say "yes" to some guy..easy as they've said to me..just take it easy...
Okay..It's not easy as my friends' thought or what you think...I have been through journey of love with uneasy ways..I've start commited being in relationship..since I'm on secondary school and then more relationships in High school ...*turn red face*
And some of my love stories fall in wrong person... but I really have no regret at all with all the relationship or all the feelings I've ever had! I've been through love in one side.. Just in my side..and I've been through unsaid love.. and of course no strings relationship...I've ever been fallin' to my friend and when we've end our love relationship we've end our friendship. I hate it! And I've ever been in love which we've met and end by destiny..such a drama love story..Really!!... (maybe someday I will share to you about that *_^ )and that become my last love relationship and and make me more mature in love..in commitment :)
Okay back to my real world...This wish become flat..or vapid...I do want to be a bride..but I have no idea when...I do want to..soon...I have no plan that I'm still single..I have planned on 26th I will be married..but..looks there is some delay .... (I will talk to to you about delay on my next blog post) ...
But one things for sure...deep down in my hear...I'm waiting..my time..I know there will come....
For some friends who asked..do you open my heart? Yes I do...I open my heart..but...this heart is fragile..this heart is blind :) this heart just want to choose some guy..and sometimes this heart is choose to fallin to Mr. Wrong..So this mind or brain is helpful (you can read my previous blog post about heart vs brain)..
I wish when it's come..I could be falling to Mr. More than Enough..Mr. Right..
This heart isnt easy to falling..I have try to open my heart to some guy when they looks want to know me more ..as my mind and brain though they quite good guy...but..it doesn't works..there's no chemistry or I couldn't feel my heart "thump-thump" when I'm with them...So..I talked to my heart..that's fine...It's okay when you fall or choose to Mr.Wrong..it's okay when you feel lonely...It's okay...just be still..and be strong..that time will come...and as I said..I will thankful and have no regret what I chose. I chose to wait...wait until I could really falling love and feel my heart "thump-thump"...Just wait...if it comes...the first thing I will do is to share to you....Just wait...as I wait...