Friends with benefit or no string relationship

It's not a movie about Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis or movie Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher that I will share to you friends. I will share to you about Casual relationship or well known as friends with benefit..but what I will share about not about the real meaning of casual relationship or no string relationship or relationship with no commitment. If I copy from wikipedia, here they said about casual relationship In each case, the relationship's dominance in the lives of those involved is being voluntarily limited, and there is usually a sense that the relationship is intended to endure only so long as both parties wish it to.
From urbandictionary.com I got definition of no string relationship
1) Doing something for someone without asking for anything in return. In Indonesia..we called it TTM or teman tapi mesra.. but it's not like the explanation in wikipedia about casual relationship or friends with benefit..In my country most of TTM are not with "have a sexual relationship". I will not talk about casual relationship that have a sexual relationship. I will share with the bold sentences as above.

2) Being in a relationship with someone, while still dating other people. This is so there is not anxiety of worrying about where him or her is or what him or her is doing.
3) free of conditions, restrictions, costs, or any other obstacles

Okay..I confessed I've ever been in this relationship..(of course not with sexual relationship..absolutely NOT!) and some of friends...And mostly..the FACT is woman is always the victim..we were deeply fall in this relationship and want more in this relationship. While the man isnt like that or have a same feeling with the woman.
In my experience that, the first we expect nothing and become we expect less and end with this feeling...we expect more..we as a woman..want more..we are falling to this relationship..love has growing in our heart and mind.. and of course we want more..we want real love..and we don't care about anything...
At that time..I've been struggled..I've never have feeling like that..at that time..from friends..and become close and looks like we are more than friends..at that time..I have no feeling at all..At that time.. he was not my type..but at that  time..I'm felt..I'm echanted with his care..with him..all of him..I'm enchanted and drowned in that feeling...I wish he could be mine..not just as this "relationship" I want he would be mine. But..it hurts when your feeling and your heart want more but..your mind keep remind it couldn't! It hurts when you saw him everyday..or heard his voice..and kept gave you and treat you as usual. I must runaway from him, tried didn't see him or ignore him. But the most painful was runaway from your heart...from your feeling. I have no happiness..but I received painful in my heart...Pain when you realized this feeling shouldn't happened.
At that time the racional consideration on my mind were too many. One of the biggest was his "womanizer" act. I think he was treat other girls as me. And I'm trap on my own world, on my feeling, and tried hard to escape >.<
So...the other's experience also did to my friends..different case..different person (oh ya there are 2 cases of my friends and I were in the same person....LOL *secret*) ..but with same theme...Friends with benefit or no string relationship...
Okay too much explanation..a highlight..Dear women, be careful with your heart..be careful with what you decide..don't ever think or to do this kind of relationship. It sucks!
but..don't be sad if you have through a hard time..or have happened such this relationship...I never regret all relationship happened in my life. This kind of relationhip is my one of my journey of love. To learn and to grow. I've promised to myself that in my wedding day, I will thank to all my people in my journey of love. I thankful that with them, they bring me to be a strong and tough woman and will keep thankful with a person beside me...my husband..my half..my Mr. more than enough :)

“A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one”
~Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings~

XOXO

PinkLady