This past week I have been felt that I'm sad..strugling..I feel hurt..and pain...And sometimes I felt that..I forget how to cry..Sometimes..because it's too hurt.. I feel that this is the most part of my life that I feel so hard..for me..It comes in every aspect in my life...A lot of adversities..Sometimes I felt that..life is unfair for me..I have been a good person..I treat others with good manner..I did my best in my life..But..it isnt enough.....The morning devotion in office talk about how you treat others..and others will treat you as you treat them...And..if I could complain I will say that..Why? I have been a good person..I did my best..but they and its not treat me fairly...I felt..so sad..It's not easy for me..I know that I shouldn't complain...I should thankful..but..it hurts and painful..when you must thankful when you are in unfair condition...when you feel a lot of heartache...Sometimes I felt that I couldnt breath...because it's to hurt and painful...do you know that how hurtful..when you are smile while you are in pain and hurt? How you must show that you are strength while..you feel that you are so weak..and couldnt bear all the painful?
Friends..I dont know when it will be over..seems like all comes in hurt and painful..looks likes lot of tears now..I feel like I can't see anything..I couldn't see my way now..walking in the dark and did not see anything..with a lot of tears..pain and hurt.. Do you know that how it so hurtful and painful..to keep believing and keep stand? Sometimes..my kneel is to weak to stand...I want to scream..I want to cry with a loud voice..but I cant..I must strong..
..I hold tight God's hand...I don't know what will be the end..what would be happen now and later..
the thing make me keep strong until now.. I know it's Him..It's You..My God..
hold on Your hand..on Your promises...even I don't have any clue or any clear picture yet to when His promises happened..I will keep hang on..I will be still..and Stand on You....
When I cant find my hiding place..place to cry with a loud voice or just to scream..only God know my situation..when I scream and cried in my heart..God is my hiding place...As long I still with Him..it is ENOUGH...He is my hiding place..
I'm crying for my process of life....but I will rejoice and be glad because of my God!! I am happy because of You, O Lord...
Sometimes life is hard, seems not fair, as long God is with me,that's not a matter. His ♥ is more than enough! It's beyond than my thoughts!
No matter what happen to me...even it deeply hurtful..painful..I still will say..stand, and shout it with faith... Jesus You are So Good!
I will keep stand and be strong...Someday..somehow..it will comes..and with no regrets..I will be thankful for this life process. You are my witnessess, friends..Someday..I will share to you..what's the next phase of mine..
XOXO
PinkLady
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