A letter to all daughters.."You'll be Okay.."

A chat message me and my friend

My friend: Hi..how is your day? What is your feeling on today that age? 

Me: mmh..*thinking hardly* I feel nothing..really..i feel same like yesterday..

At my car this evening, alone with some music.

Me: do I need make some self contemplation now? To thinking about today? Really i feel nothing. "I AM OKAY". I do good, i am strong, helpful, independent, etc, bla..bla..bla and I am totally okay.

But a voice from my heart saying.."it's okay not to be okay..You'll be okay.."

Mmhh.. Another *thinking hardly* and said..okay..? "I THINK, I am okay!"

But this voice repeatly saying.. "You'll be okay.."

And I click louder the radio and ..surprise..surprise..a song really make me speechless and could not say any words, just more tears on my face, this is not a christian song, or came from the christian artist etc, but..really it touched my heart, and speaks clearly about " I think I am Okay!!" A song from "a great big world, "You'll Be Okay"

"You'll be okay

You'll be okay

The sun will rise

To better days

And change will come

It's on it's way

Just close your eyes

And let it rain

'Cause you're never alone

I will always be there

You just carry on

You will understand

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

Just look inside

You know the way

Let it go

Fly away

And say goodbye

To yesterday

'Cause you're never alone

And I will always be there

You just carry on

You will understand

And I will be strong

When love is gone

I'll carry on...

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

The sun will rise

To better days

You'll be okay

You'll be okay

Just close your eyes

And let it rain

When you need it the most

And all you've got is a prayer

You must carry on

You will understand

You will understand

You will understand

My "not a contemplation" planning, on my car when I want to off my car machine.

Sunday, June 15th, 2015

Stevany, who think she is okay, but she's not.

Who think she is strong, but she's not.

She is just only human..A Daughter..who really Totally depend on her Father. 

A Real and True Father..

She is only a daughter, who can't lie or even pretend to her Father.

She is only a daughter, who trying to show to her father "I am lady now"

But..she FORGET...she still a DAUGHTER in her Father's eyes!!

She is only a daughter...

- Happy Father's day -

Happy New Year 2014

Time flies and here I am in 2014. 

2013 was awesome year, year of favor and Grace from God. Joy, sorrow, tears, good, bad everything in there. For some reason i think this 2013 is one of best year for me, many surprises from God and things that i never thought or imagined were happened. Some are good some are bad, but mostly that were best things in my life.

2014.

I dont know what will happen this year. The best thing is yet to comes. And i think i prepare myself to be ready. For i know who holds me for my future. Like this picture you will see a lake and my foot. I walk by faith not by sight. Faith the lake of blessings and miracles. 

                        

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what lies ahead.

H A P P Y   N E W   Y E A R    2 0 1 4

A geek and part time blogger is raise from the death! Welcome home!

Last two weeks i just bought an ipad mini. Why i choose this gadget because it’s small and light and easy to bring everywhere. It was started when I'm so interested with my officemate’s kindle and want to buy it so badly..i could read books everywhere..but after do some survey…the winner goes to...ipad mini...i chose to bought it..which is on ipad i'm no just could get read books but some other that important for me.

 I really loves reading book… Yes I’m a moody geek! When i really want to reading books, i will read and finished so badly and add buy some books and finished it soon! But sometimes when i get lazy i ignore it for months! LoL…😸
the reason Maybe because i’m too tired or too lazy so i prefer to sleep! Hahahha
..so back to ipad, i realized if i will more traveling as Auditor i should bring book! But i’m a person always forget my books! And other reason, it heavy if i will bring some books, So no other choice than e-book! 

Actually I dont like ebook, I like smell of paper book! But since the better choice was ebook for my situation, so let use this new ipad mini as my reason why i chose to bought this book! So i asked my friends ebook files from her kindlebook, and so happy with those interesting files but I must convert it to Epub file (format read for ibooks ipad mini)..and so happy with those kind of file ebooks could import to my ipad mini! When I open iBooks apps, i feels like found heaven on ipad…it is now become my hiding place, My iBooks’ “Bookshelf”…


the other reason also What makes me happy that…those books are difficult to find in any bookstore in My city…😢 Those ebooks are novels (heavy and light contain), motivating,christian books and  all kinds of genre books and mostly are bestsellers, and even my manuals related my job i have put here and could open anytime.  😉😍

And this iBooks apps, the other advantages, I could read a book and put some notes, highlighted, and i also could get translation on the book I read, when i get lost with the meaning (english). I don't even need to open dictionary! 
It have the definition like oxford dictionary!...yeay! Maybe i kinda late to realized this…but I’m in ❤ to my iBooks bookshelf on my Ipad mini! I could read everywhere and anytime! 


And…one good thing on this ipad mini that my other hobbies to write blog, could access and write anytime, so i will have no excuse to stop sharing or writing on my blog..everything on my mind…let get share it! Yeeeaaayy!!😂

God is never late nor is He early

Today in office's morning devotion I'm so touched heard a story about a child name Javier. Can't stop cried to know about the story of this child and can't wait to share it to my blog. I'm blessed and grateful! God is GREAT! He is AWESOME!

God never blink for them and for us!

And the story began....

Javier is a 6 year old boy, East Indonesia, born with a cardiac abnormality, he is a son of a casual worker and a mother without job, and he has two siblings. Medical names his heart problem is Atrial Septal Defect (ASD). Javier is child sponsored in Compassion and Compassion helped with Complimentary Intervention that provides medical fund for him for heart surgery. From small island went to big capital city Jakarta, with his mom and 1 staff of Compassion's project, they were ready for big surgery. Javier's mom was very afraid for this "big step" because the doctor said this surgery was really complex and very high risk and they must ready with every condition during and after surgery. On Friday, last week, my colleague as Facilitator for this project informed for all of staff to uphold Javier in our prayer for the big surgery. We were hoping the best for Javier, we believed God took care the surgery for Javier!
And finally on Friday, very good news sounds, that Javier's surgery went well and moved to ICU room. And another miracle happened  sounds today in our devotion that Javier has stabilized condition and the doctors said he could going home!! Oh God is Great..!! He did the surgery for Javier! He never blink! And another miracle about Javier...And my tears can't going down when I heard this news.. I'm amazed with God's love and he still works for Javier's life. There's as unknown kind-hearted woman talked with Javier's mom and the project staff and she's so touched with Javier's condition, and she said that, she will take care for all the hospital bills (surgery, medicine, room, etc)! They can go home safely and do not need to worry about any hospital bills! Praise God..Praise His Holy name! God loves Javier so much!

God is never late nor is He early!

I'm so amazed by His love to all the children! He loves them unconditionally! I'm so proud to have God who never blink for every children! I know this is just a small story but there is a lot stories more to come to show God's love to every children! He never blink....

Loves God, Loves Children....

 

S t e p h

 

Selfie of the Month

What do you do when you're just alone at your room in your office and got boring...I did selfie picture yesterday! LOL!!
Sitting in new room as new position and your team members are not around.. read new workflow, new tool, and you got blank..and here I am with my selfie style!!
I think this is the most selfie ever for my self! Took 9 expressions..and just my face..what a selfie picture I ever did!

I think I miss my old finance team..which are ladies..and 1 man!
Now my new Auditors team members are men!
Here I share you my new small room.. The Auditors room...



Okay..now let's back to work! *big grin*

xoxo

SunsetLady 

Happy National Children Day 2013!

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.”

Today, Indonesia, my lovely country, celebrates National Children Day...and I think today Google Indonesia also show the support and celebrate this day with 2 children, A girl and A boy. A boy wear a elementary school uniform in Indonesia which is read and white, while A girl wear a girl scout uniform in elementary school uniform in Indonesia.

And today I want to celebrate this special day...this National Children Day..by writing this post...

What can moves me? What is my strength? What is my weakness? What is my passion? What is my great desire? What is my calling?  THE ANSWER is only one...C   H    I    L    D    R    E    N...
One of my motto ..Loves God, Loves Children...
I can't imagine if in this world only men and women and there's no children..I think I can't live in this world if there's no children anymore..LoL..

Living in the developing country and a big country in Indonesia, makes me thankful, which it's makes me realize why I'm stay in this world..

I'm here to see and see, and I'm doing here to act and act.

Kinda confuse huh?

I'm here to see the reality of children's life now and see what should like children's life in Indonesia, and I'm doing here to act my best for children and will let children act tor themselves and other children...

Living in this crazy and hard world, PUSH myself not just THINK but ACT!
What have I do for those children..I cant stop crying if I see and hear about the reality about children..But my tears aren't enough for children...My "sweat" or my labor does!!
One of my favorite author and my inspirator Wess Stafford, my "Papa Wess" always talk about
 

"Do we treat children with respect? Do we seek to build them up? Or do we neglect them? Do we become advocate for them when they can't speak for themselves?"

“I’m convinced that one of the most powerful forces on earth is the prayer of a child.”
― Wess Stafford
“If we nurture the dreams of children, the world will be blessed. If we destroy them, the world is doomed!”
― Wess Stafford

 

It moves me to ACT!

So, what am I doing for children?

Now, I'm not working.. I live my life for children in this world..I'm lucky when God put me in Compassion, not just work but to live for children in poverty...I'm a luckiest and happiest person when I'm around children... do you?

I don't want to teach anybody here about children...but..do you realize how precious they are? Don't wait until you realize...this world will become NOTHING without them!




 For me it's just very simple..

L O V E S     G O D ,    L O V E S     C H I L D R E N

xoxo

SunsetLady 

I got Disease!! It names LAZY disease of write blog!

8 months...Yeaaaahh...I absent for writing blog. I think, the lazy disease control my life, so the busy things I did, wasnt a main reason, it's lazy!!!
Actually I have many drafts, but, stuck in the middle to continue the blog post!! HAA! Where are you my blogger soul? Have you run out of myself? Have you trap in my body? Or do you hide and dont want to come out?
Yeaaah..I got stucked!!
I have a lot of experiences gained during my absences time (July 2012 to March 2013), but still, I dont have any feel to write a blog, even I'd like to!
I confused where I should start..but here is the summary of I missed, I dont know of I could post 1 month 1 blog post!

August: Busy with trainings...yeah..we have capacity building training at office, and this month..have no memorable moment to me!! Hahaha...
September: Still with busy tasks at office, but excited to travel out of my town! I have to delivered training in Papua at end of September! Yeay!! Finally I'm back to Papua again! But I have tight agenda! LOL! But better than I have to stay at office! I need to travelling! Or I'm died to bored!
October: What an excited Month, I could travelling to Papua and also Bandung! A long trip of travelling. From Manado, go to Papua, stay for 4 days and go to Jakarta-Bandung for training for 3 days and back again to Sentani Papua, go to Wamena Papua, back to Sentani Papua and back home...Manado..my lovely town! Great experiences I've gained that month (May be I will share 1 blog post for this month)
November: New thing...One of my wishlist finally reached! Yeay..I have new car..bought with my own money (*proud*) and drive with my own..proudly present my Sir Black... Daihatsu Sirion Black..
(should I present 1 post blog for introduced my Sir Black? :P )
December: Christmas....and end of year..I've nothing special this month...Just like last Christmas..spent with my family at my lovely town!!
January: Stay for quite long at other town left my lovely town Manado. almost 1 month I have to stay at Sentani Papua, while my assistant for new office in this area still vacant! Yeay..trap in this Sentani town in Papua..but I enjoyed it... (wait my story for this!)
February: This is my February Breeze!!...My summer vacation!! my summer wasn't on June or July..but February!! Sunbathed, enjoyed sunset and beach with friends at BALI!! Last year of February, I went to Bali..and finally..at the same month at this new year..I also get vacation on BALI! One of my favorite place to escape...vacation!!! This must be more than 1 blog post! wahahahha
March: Starting to write blog..I must...that's my target!!...

Okay my blogger soul..welcome to my world again.. thank you for comeback..thank you for not hiding anymore...now it's time to do your job!! Let's starting together..to share a story..to share the love we have...
Wait and see for blog post coming... don't miss it guys!!

xoxo

SunsetLady

Your favor and Your grace Lord last a lifetime

Last Wednesday I attended a concert..
Christian youth concert by True Worshippers
They have a new album titled "FAVOR"
I never heard their new song..
And when I heard..it breaks my heart
Remember about God's Favor and God's Grace to me
And I could say nothing...only tears felt down from my face..

And flash back to 11 years ago..
Yup, when I trully have officially engaged with Jesus!
Falling in love...deeper and deeper!
I remembered what I've been through
In my whole life and after I have deep relationship with Jesus
I was amazed..while they sang this song..
All the pictures of life..video of my life..
I can saw it clearly..
All of my life..happened because of His Favor and Grace
He never leave me or forsake me!

Bloggers..
My life is live only by His Grace and Favor
A lot of happened in my life
And if not because of His Grace and Favor
I could never be like I am now!

Now the vision is clearly this year
The commitment that I've been made
also become stronger..
Here is the songs..that melt my heart
This song as my gratitude for my Jesus Christ..
Song by True Worshipper

FAVOR

by True Worshipper

There is a song in every silence

There is a dawn in every darkness

There is a hope in every pain

There is a spring in every winter

Even in doubt there is believing

Through every season You are near

Oh Your favor and Your grace Lord

Last a lifetime, Last a lifetime

Oh Your favor and Your grace Lord

Last a lifetime, Last a lifetime

You satisfy our deepest hunger

You broke the bond and set us free

You gave us life eternally

Jesus the name that calms our fears!

Only in You our sorrows cease

Yout love has won and now we see

Hallelujah, You are faithful, You are faithful 

Hallelujah, You are faithful, You are faithful

Now..my life will lived the vision and dream from God for me, to obey the calling and doing  God's purpose for me when He created me..

And I love you more and more Jesus..
My Shelter, My Strength, My everything

xoxo

SunsetLady